So recently, I discovered my old self . What I mean by that is, I'm startin' to NOT GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE again . Like I'm startin' to lose interest on certain people now . . not just certain people, MOST people actually . I remember '08 being the best year of my life just because I wasn't stressed at all . . and you know why I wasn't ? CUZ I DIDN'T GIVE A FUCK .
I mean, I had close friends and I obviously cared about 'em . . but the way I was, I didn't care about anyone's feelings at the end of the day . I just basically felt like I was always right . I always felt like I was the shit; whoever I lost, if they weren't family, I didn't give a fuck . Basically, I just felt like everyone was replacable . .
And another thing : I never let situations get to me . I didn't show sadness . . no matter what people did, I didn't let it get to me . . and when things DID get ugly/bad, I still never showed it . The only emotion/charateristic I showed was arrogance . . I mean, don't get it twisted, I was caring about people, but when/if they threatened/do me wrong, I just had 2 fingers up in the air [figuratively and literally at times lmao] . Plus I was just positive . . I never let bad things get me down; instead, I used bad memories to fuel my confidence . . I always felt like today might've rained, but tomorrow will be sunny and these fuckers will realize what the fuck they did/missed out on .
But the end of '08/'09 just been bad to me . . and I can honestly say, I'm responsible for half of my 'misery' cuz I let bad things get to me and just cared too much about certain things/individuals . . but now, I'm fed up and guess what ? I'm startin' to NOT GIVE A FUCK >:D I hope it stays this way though . . cuz I'm ready to fuckin' change .
-M.C.
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