2010 New Years

So last night (Dec. 31st-Jan. 1st), I spent my new years with my friends (for the first time) in California (fot the first time again haha) at TAO (Together As One; for the first time . . AGAIN hahah) .

That was possibly one of my most I-Was-Sooo-Fucked-Up nights . . it was REAL dope though . Met sooo many chill people out there . I was all around the arena and tent talkin' to random-ass people (lmao) . That's what drugs do to you though . . makes you "free" .

As the drugs were comin' off my system (the weed stayed though lol) . . I came to a realization . It's 2010 and I couldn't believe it . I'm about to be 20; exactly 10 years ago, year 2000, I was just a lil' kid at age 10 . . I still remember how year 2000 new years went . . it was such a happy night . . it brought back soo many memories thinkin' 'bout shit . But the most that came into my mind was the fact that sooo many things changed about me during this decade .

The 'change' that hit me the most is probably the fact how I had fun when I was a kid and how I have fun NOW . I can honestly say I wished things never changed . . When the drugs came off at TAO, I felt soo useless . . but then again, I think it was the weed that was just trippin' me out cuz I was smokin' soo much . But yea, as I looked around, I thought to myself "damn, is this the only way people know how to have fun now . . ? Doin' drugs ?" Kinda felt sorry for myself mostly cuz back then, before I was 18, I had HELLA fun doin' the simplest and most 'boring' things . I knew how to keep myself entertained being alone, even if it was every single day of being lonely .

After, TAO, I sort of told myself to calm down on doin' stupid shit . . I needa get my shit together, especially during the recession . . hopefully things will get better . I'm lookin' forward to 2010 A LOT . . even though our economy is still fucked up . . I'ma plan on makin' 2010 waaay better than '09 .

-M.C.