-M.C.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Friday, January 29, 2010
Hasn't Even Been A Year . .
And we moved again . . fuckin' economy, man . . this time it wasn't even our house that we lost . . it was actually my mom's bestfriend's . Shit .
-M.C.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Childhood Hobby
Damn, I'm feelin' to start makin' comics again . I been havin' this idea for almost a month now . I keep seeing soo many cool designs and drawings . And I've been thinkin' . . I wanna start doin' comics again to maybe improve my drawing skills (that's how I got better at drawing as a kid) . Hmm . . O.o
-M.C.
-M.C.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
So Drew Brees & the Saints will represent the NFC and Peyton Manning & the Colts will represent the AFC for Super Bowl 44 . I guess I'm happy for the Saints for their first Super Bowl appearance in their bad football history and the fact that Reggie Bush plays for them so yea . And I'm happy for Manning for another Super Bowl appearance too . I didn't really care who won the AFC/NFC Championship games but I wished the Jets would've won the Jets/Colts game though cuz of Mark Sanchez (he played for USC just like Reggie Bush) . And I wished the Vikings would've won too cuz of Favre and Adrian Peterson . But oh well, should be a good Super Bowl match-up since both the Saints and Colts are high-scoring teams . I think I'll go for the Colts . . hmm .
-M.C.
Monday, January 18, 2010
My Mama Always Comes Through . .
"That's alright; to mourn and cry . That's always how things are in the beginning; it's hard to accept it . I was just like that . But things will get better . You'll eventually learn how to cope with things and realize things will be better in time . That's how life is; nothing's for certain . . but you gotta be strong."
-Rebecca Cortes .
When things go wrong, my mom always know how to keep everyone's head up . .
-M.C.
-Rebecca Cortes .
When things go wrong, my mom always know how to keep everyone's head up . .
-M.C.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Age Ain't Nothin' But A Number
He did it again . . Brett Favre and the Vikings crushed the Cowgirls in a 34-3 win ! >:) hah . A lot of people doubted Favre cuz he didn't do as well as people thought he would last season when he signed with the Jets; people were probably most worried about his age . . but I never doubted the old man ! Haha . A playoff career-high 4 touchdowns today, baby ! Shoooot .
-M.C.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Another Loss . .
Damn, the Pats got blown by the Ravens this morning 33-14 . Very similar beating the Eagles got from the Cowboys . . damn . Well, I'm hoping for the Vikes to go to the Super Bowl . . if not, the Colts; even though they're not one of my fav. teams, they've always been one of those teams I liked .
Wow Another Disappointing Year . .
Woooow, tonight was such a horrible night for me . . My eagles got blown 34-14 by, possibly the team I hate the most, Cowboys . I gotta give it to them though . . they literally out-ran us . Their defense did it again for the 2nd time in 2 weeks . . This season was full of high hopes . . and to end to the hands of the Cowboys ? Wow, that's possibly the worst thing that can happen . . their own hated rivals . .
Well at least there was a REALLY good highlight from the game . . from MICHAEL VICK ! I knew he'd come through as I predicted when he signed with my team . . but his one really good play didn't cut it enough . . damn . .
And my Beangles . . lost to the Jets . . Another upsetting season for Chad Ochocinco (my fav. player) and Carson Palmer . . Damn Carson got beaten by his own kind too . . Mark Sanchez . . a USC Trojan ! Well I don't really like the Jets (considering they're from NY ha no disrespect) . I'm happy for Sanchez though . . I just like him cuz he was a Trojan hah . Well, I hope Sanchez can take the Jets to the AFC championship game cuz I'd hate to see the fuckin' Chargers go .
Now I just gotta depend on my 2nd favorite team, who are still yet to play tomorrow, the Patriots . Let's get it Brady . . get that 4th ring, brah . If not, I still got hopes for the Vikes (not really a fan . . I just like 'em cuz of Adrian "All Day" Peterson" and Brett Favre) .
-M.C.
Friday, January 8, 2010
Pretty Interesting Show
I always love watchin' shows/documentaries about the history/development of human beings as a species . . Tonight I saw a 3-part show that was about that (I saw the first part; Becoming Us) . It talked about what differentiated us from our 'cousin' ancestors, the Neandethrals, and so many other things about the modern humans (how we survived, our creativity, etc.) . I'm hopin' to see the other two episodes of this show . The next episode is called So Human, So Chimp .
-M.C.
Definition Of Toughness
So I'm watchin' a re-run of the show This Emotional Life: "Rethinking Happiness" (I'm watchin' the first half of the show; I only saw the second half last night) . This is truly one of the best shows/documentaries I've ever seen in my life .
As I mentioned before, they interviewed different people from different backgrounds . One of the people they interviewed was a man named Robert Shumaker . He was a P.O.W. from the Vietnam War . His story intrigued me sooo much that it changed my life in the sense of the way I think about my future regarding my dreams . . let's just say his story made me more optimistic .
As I mentioned before, they interviewed different people from different backgrounds . One of the people they interviewed was a man named Robert Shumaker . He was a P.O.W. from the Vietnam War . His story intrigued me sooo much that it changed my life in the sense of the way I think about my future regarding my dreams . . let's just say his story made me more optimistic .
I'm not going to write about his whole story, but I can tell you this man is one tough person . The fact that he found ways to be positive all throughout the EIGHT YEARS he was locked up and tortured in Vietnam should be enough to tell you why I admire his story . I suggest everyone to do a research on his story .
-M.C.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Pursuit Of Happiness
As of right now, I'm watchin' this one show on PBS called This Emotional Life: "Rethinking Happiness" . It has different episodes I guess (the next one is called "Facing Our Fears"); this one is obviously about happiness . It talks about what makes us, human beings, happy . It's definitely one of the best shows I've ever watched .
In this episode, they talked to different people (ages/races/social status/etc) about what makes 'em happy . As the show went on, I found it very interesting how some of the things they talked about correlated with some of my recent ideas about what really makes/will make me happy .
Some of them had past problems that got in the way of their happiness (bad childhood, criminal background, sickness, money problems, social problems, etc.) . It intrigued me because through it all, they all had ways of finding happiness . The one thing that probably connected with my idea at most was : not worrying about others and just living your own life/satisfying yourself and your loved ones .
Lately, I've realized that I have been trying too hard to make others like me or I've been doing things the wrong way (for example, I just realized I've been doin' music for lust of fame/money and not for the passion I have for it . .) . I've been wanting to 'redeem' myself by just doin' my own thing and not worrying so much about other things . .
-M.C.
In this episode, they talked to different people (ages/races/social status/etc) about what makes 'em happy . As the show went on, I found it very interesting how some of the things they talked about correlated with some of my recent ideas about what really makes/will make me happy .
Some of them had past problems that got in the way of their happiness (bad childhood, criminal background, sickness, money problems, social problems, etc.) . It intrigued me because through it all, they all had ways of finding happiness . The one thing that probably connected with my idea at most was : not worrying about others and just living your own life/satisfying yourself and your loved ones .
Lately, I've realized that I have been trying too hard to make others like me or I've been doing things the wrong way (for example, I just realized I've been doin' music for lust of fame/money and not for the passion I have for it . .) . I've been wanting to 'redeem' myself by just doin' my own thing and not worrying so much about other things . .
-M.C.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
The Most Painful Thought
I love/hate how imaginative my brain is . I think about things that an average person don't think about on a daily basis . . and yet, every day, my brain never stops wondering . Tonight, I was lookin' through the Internet about cosmology (study of the Universe in its totality), then I came across a video on Youtube about it and I decided to read the comments . People were arguin' about the creator of the Universe . Of course, some of them immediately said it was God who created everything .
It made me think for a minute . . the same old questions I been askin' myself since I was a kid . . "who did create the Universe ?"/"where did the Universe come from ?"/"what created the Universe ?"
To me, this is the most painful thought . Even scientists can't totally explain the creation of the Universe . But I always love/hate thinkin' about it . I think it's fun to think about it because it expands my thinkin' but once my imagination starts runnin', I start hatin' the thought of it because . . well, it can't be explained .
The fact that I am now (been for years) an atheist, I always count on science to explain everything . But back when I believed in God, I never really questioned the creation of the Universe because my answer was right in front of me . . GOD .
Even though I put my trust on science, I never fail to think about other people's beliefs (to a certain extent) . When someone tells me it's God who created the Universe, I can't help to think/challenge those people where God came from and how he/she became the being that he/she is . Isn't it irritating ? To think where our 'creator' came from .
If you believe that there's someone who created us all (if you don't, then pretend), then imagine this : go back in time . . even before the very first seconds of the creation of the Universe . . when everything was pitch black . . COMPLETE NOTHINGNESS . . there was someone sittin' out there, alone by themself . With nothing around him/her . Then one day, he/she decided to create space . Who is this someone ? WHY is he/she alone ? How did he/she become the being that he/she is ? WHERE did he/she come from ? How long/many years has he/she been sittin' alone ? Or more importantly, WHAT MADE THEM DECIDE TO CREATE such a large (VERY LARGE) space that even to the end of time, NO ONE will ever discover it's size and quantity ?
It hurts to think about it, doesn't it ? To think of the history of our 'creator' . Even if we do find out, we still have to find/figure out who/what created the creator of the being that created us . In other words, who is God's parents/ancestors (?)
Even if you scientifically think about it, it's still hard to make assumptions/ideas about it . For example, the Big Bang theory . Even though I am convinced this is a more valuable reasoning for our creation, I still can't help but to wonder . . where did that little energy that created everything come from AND what caused it to react ?
Think about it . . it's quite interesting . Every night, I seriously never go to bed without questioning our Universe's existance . Especially when I'm at a place where the sky is filled with stars . It's truly baffling in my opinion . Like I said earlier, even to the end of time, I doubt these questions will ever be answered . . but IF one day, answers do come, I would love to hear/learn about it . .
Imagine . . maybe our reality is just a dream of another person's reality . . . . .
It made me think for a minute . . the same old questions I been askin' myself since I was a kid . . "who did create the Universe ?"/"where did the Universe come from ?"/"what created the Universe ?"
To me, this is the most painful thought . Even scientists can't totally explain the creation of the Universe . But I always love/hate thinkin' about it . I think it's fun to think about it because it expands my thinkin' but once my imagination starts runnin', I start hatin' the thought of it because . . well, it can't be explained .
The fact that I am now (been for years) an atheist, I always count on science to explain everything . But back when I believed in God, I never really questioned the creation of the Universe because my answer was right in front of me . . GOD .
Even though I put my trust on science, I never fail to think about other people's beliefs (to a certain extent) . When someone tells me it's God who created the Universe, I can't help to think/challenge those people where God came from and how he/she became the being that he/she is . Isn't it irritating ? To think where our 'creator' came from .
If you believe that there's someone who created us all (if you don't, then pretend), then imagine this : go back in time . . even before the very first seconds of the creation of the Universe . . when everything was pitch black . . COMPLETE NOTHINGNESS . . there was someone sittin' out there, alone by themself . With nothing around him/her . Then one day, he/she decided to create space . Who is this someone ? WHY is he/she alone ? How did he/she become the being that he/she is ? WHERE did he/she come from ? How long/many years has he/she been sittin' alone ? Or more importantly, WHAT MADE THEM DECIDE TO CREATE such a large (VERY LARGE) space that even to the end of time, NO ONE will ever discover it's size and quantity ?
It hurts to think about it, doesn't it ? To think of the history of our 'creator' . Even if we do find out, we still have to find/figure out who/what created the creator of the being that created us . In other words, who is God's parents/ancestors (?)
Even if you scientifically think about it, it's still hard to make assumptions/ideas about it . For example, the Big Bang theory . Even though I am convinced this is a more valuable reasoning for our creation, I still can't help but to wonder . . where did that little energy that created everything come from AND what caused it to react ?
Think about it . . it's quite interesting . Every night, I seriously never go to bed without questioning our Universe's existance . Especially when I'm at a place where the sky is filled with stars . It's truly baffling in my opinion . Like I said earlier, even to the end of time, I doubt these questions will ever be answered . . but IF one day, answers do come, I would love to hear/learn about it . .
Imagine . . maybe our reality is just a dream of another person's reality . . . . .
-M.C.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Somethin' To Relate To . Hah
"I wish I was like six-foot-nine
So I could get with Leoshi, cause she don't know me but yo she's really fine .
You know I see her all the time .
Everywhere I go, and even in my dreams, I can scheme of ways to make her mine .
Cause I know she's livin' phat;
Her boyfriend's tall,
and he plays ball,
so how am I gonna compete with that ?
'Cause when it comes to playing basketball, I'm always last to be picked .
And in some cases never picked at all .
So I just lean upon the wall,
or sit up in the bleachers with the rest of the girls, who came to watch their men ball .
Dag y'all ! I never understood that;
Why the jocks get the fly girls, and me [?] I get the hood rats .
I tell 'em scat, skittle, skibobble .
Got hit with a bottle,
and put in the hospital,
for talkin' that mess .
I confess,
it's a shame,
when you livin' in a city, that's the size of a box and nobody knows yo' name .
Glad I came,
to my senses, like quick-quick, got sick-sick to my stomach .
Overcome with my thoughts of me and her together right?
So when I asked her out she said I wasn't her type ."
-"I Wish I Was A Baller" by Skee-Lo
sometimes I really do feel like this haha . . dayum .
-M.C.
So I could get with Leoshi, cause she don't know me but yo she's really fine .
You know I see her all the time .
Everywhere I go, and even in my dreams, I can scheme of ways to make her mine .
Cause I know she's livin' phat;
Her boyfriend's tall,
and he plays ball,
so how am I gonna compete with that ?
'Cause when it comes to playing basketball, I'm always last to be picked .
And in some cases never picked at all .
So I just lean upon the wall,
or sit up in the bleachers with the rest of the girls, who came to watch their men ball .
Dag y'all ! I never understood that;
Why the jocks get the fly girls, and me [?] I get the hood rats .
I tell 'em scat, skittle, skibobble .
Got hit with a bottle,
and put in the hospital,
for talkin' that mess .
I confess,
it's a shame,
when you livin' in a city, that's the size of a box and nobody knows yo' name .
Glad I came,
to my senses, like quick-quick, got sick-sick to my stomach .
Overcome with my thoughts of me and her together right?
So when I asked her out she said I wasn't her type ."
-"I Wish I Was A Baller" by Skee-Lo
sometimes I really do feel like this haha . . dayum .
-M.C.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
2010 New Years
So last night (Dec. 31st-Jan. 1st), I spent my new years with my friends (for the first time) in California (fot the first time again haha) at TAO (Together As One; for the first time . . AGAIN hahah) .
That was possibly one of my most I-Was-Sooo-Fucked-Up nights . . it was REAL dope though . Met sooo many chill people out there . I was all around the arena and tent talkin' to random-ass people (lmao) . That's what drugs do to you though . . makes you "free" .
As the drugs were comin' off my system (the weed stayed though lol) . . I came to a realization . It's 2010 and I couldn't believe it . I'm about to be 20; exactly 10 years ago, year 2000, I was just a lil' kid at age 10 . . I still remember how year 2000 new years went . . it was such a happy night . . it brought back soo many memories thinkin' 'bout shit . But the most that came into my mind was the fact that sooo many things changed about me during this decade .
The 'change' that hit me the most is probably the fact how I had fun when I was a kid and how I have fun NOW . I can honestly say I wished things never changed . . When the drugs came off at TAO, I felt soo useless . . but then again, I think it was the weed that was just trippin' me out cuz I was smokin' soo much . But yea, as I looked around, I thought to myself "damn, is this the only way people know how to have fun now . . ? Doin' drugs ?" Kinda felt sorry for myself mostly cuz back then, before I was 18, I had HELLA fun doin' the simplest and most 'boring' things . I knew how to keep myself entertained being alone, even if it was every single day of being lonely .
After, TAO, I sort of told myself to calm down on doin' stupid shit . . I needa get my shit together, especially during the recession . . hopefully things will get better . I'm lookin' forward to 2010 A LOT . . even though our economy is still fucked up . . I'ma plan on makin' 2010 waaay better than '09 .
-M.C.
That was possibly one of my most I-Was-Sooo-Fucked-Up nights . . it was REAL dope though . Met sooo many chill people out there . I was all around the arena and tent talkin' to random-ass people (lmao) . That's what drugs do to you though . . makes you "free" .
As the drugs were comin' off my system (the weed stayed though lol) . . I came to a realization . It's 2010 and I couldn't believe it . I'm about to be 20; exactly 10 years ago, year 2000, I was just a lil' kid at age 10 . . I still remember how year 2000 new years went . . it was such a happy night . . it brought back soo many memories thinkin' 'bout shit . But the most that came into my mind was the fact that sooo many things changed about me during this decade .
The 'change' that hit me the most is probably the fact how I had fun when I was a kid and how I have fun NOW . I can honestly say I wished things never changed . . When the drugs came off at TAO, I felt soo useless . . but then again, I think it was the weed that was just trippin' me out cuz I was smokin' soo much . But yea, as I looked around, I thought to myself "damn, is this the only way people know how to have fun now . . ? Doin' drugs ?" Kinda felt sorry for myself mostly cuz back then, before I was 18, I had HELLA fun doin' the simplest and most 'boring' things . I knew how to keep myself entertained being alone, even if it was every single day of being lonely .
After, TAO, I sort of told myself to calm down on doin' stupid shit . . I needa get my shit together, especially during the recession . . hopefully things will get better . I'm lookin' forward to 2010 A LOT . . even though our economy is still fucked up . . I'ma plan on makin' 2010 waaay better than '09 .
-M.C.
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