When Your Hero Falls

When your hero falls from grace

all fairy tales are uncovered

Myths exposed & pain magnified

The greatest pain discovered

You taught me to be strong

But I'm confused to see you weak

You said never to give up

And it hurts to see you welcome defeat

When your hero falls, so do the stars

and so does the perception of tomorrow

Without my hero there is only

me alone to deal with my sorrow

Your heart ceases to work

and your soul is not happy at all

What are you expeted to do

when your hero falls down ?

- 2Pac

Man, I swear, that's one of my favorite poems of all time . Not cuz it's by 2Pac but because it's soo true . It hurts to see the people you look up to when they're at their worst . But not just that . It hurts when their shine or glory seem tainted . Like what you thought they were was the complete opposite of what they really are .

I don't know . There's this girl I admired soo much during end of '07/early '08 . Funny, I never met this girl AT ALL . I just seen her work/art/writing on deviantart.com (art website I used to be always on) and on MySpace . I was seriously IN LOVE with this girl hahaha :P

She was just sooo fuckin' POSITIVE and ARTISTIC and pretty; that's why I was soo into her . When I say I was in love or into her . . I mean, like I admired her SO MUCH . I never liked her cuz wtf, we hardly talked and I never met her haha .
But yea, the times we talked, it blew me away aha, as lame as that sounds . She was/still is one of my heroes today; that's why . When you get to talk to your idol, regardless of how much you know them personally, of course it's gon' be amazing . It's like when fans see their fav. musician/sports athlete . To me, talkin' to her was amazing cuz her artwork AND philosophy in life amazed me .

She made me into a more positive person without actually talkin' to her constantly . Just readin' her writings about her own personal problems and the way she handled them, it just made me into a less negative person . And dang, she was one great photographer .

But I stopped followin' her life/work in middle of '08 . I don't know, guess just got too busy . But every once in a while, I'd check up on her stuff . And tonight was one of those nights . Wow, I actually havn't checked up on her shit since like December prior to tonight .

But anyways, I went on her MySpace and saw she hasn't been on for 2 months . So I googled her stuff on Flickr . But then I noticed somethin' on Google; it was like the second thing that popped when I searched her up . And the title was "Rosie Hardy (her name) Plagiarism" .

I was kinda like "what the fuck ? what's that supposed to mean ?"

I clicked on it and supposedly, she's a 'fraud' . That she claimed her artwork is original but are supposedly fake . Blah blah blah . All of this stuff . It kinda hurt me in a way . I know it sounds dumb I'm gettin' hurt . I don't know . . so many people were leavin' comments callin' her fake . . blah blah blah . And there's like pictures/evidence supportin' that claim .

It just hurt me cuz she's my hero . . it's funny how she's my hero cuz we're only about the same age . . I actually think she's younger than me . But anyways . . yea, it was just like "whoa, her work are copies of others ??"

Man, I honestly don't really care if they are . Cuz art ? Art is INSPIRATION . Every art you'll see is a mere 'copy' AKA INSPIRATION of another one . . It just bothered me how people made her sound like a COMPLETE bad person for 'copying' other people's artwork . .

Wow yea, I know . . I'm weird . . This shouldn't affect me at all lol but it does . . cuz she's still one of my heroes . . regardless of how much I know about her or know her personally . . cuz at one point, she did change my life .

-M.C.