Time Changes . . And People Change Too

I don't know what it is, but I can honestly say I'm a more responsible person now that I've ever been . I love the new me actually . . I care less, in the sense of not gettin' butt-hurt/caring too much for things that don't matter .

Don't get it twisted, I actually party harder in 2010 than I've ever done my whole entire life . You can say, I do more "illegal" things these days when it comes to partyin' . But hey, every 20-year-old college kid goes through that, right . . ? But the thing about me is, now I'm actually more careful when I do stupid things when I party .

But yeah, I feel like I've become more responsible more than anything . I mean, I still have A LOT of flaws . . but I think as a family man, I've gotten better . I'm actually glad I didn't move to California back in August . . I can't believe I had soo many fights with my mom about movin' to Cali, to the point I made it seem like it's her fault why I hated my life . . lookin' back, it hurts me .

I'm glad I didn't move cuz I feel like being with my family, especially through all the tragic things we've been through (us losin' our house again, my grandma being sent to the hospital, etc .), it brought me closer to my mom . . Since my dad's in California workin' and hardly being able to come home [cuz of tight budget], I feel like my mom needed me the most than ever with all the shit my family's been through .

I mean, I still feel like I'm not the son my parents expected me to be when I was born . . but I'm slowly makin' progress . I really AM tryin', to be honest .

I believe parts of the reason I've become more responsible is because of life problems, the economy, and most importantly, my relatives from the Philippines . . they've been through so much from day one . . both from my mom and dad's side . I've always felt like FAMILY COMES FIRST but every day I think about things, I'm startin' to feel that I need to put my intentions aside, and put my family first; that's what my cousins in the Philippines are doin' .

I don't even wanna be a famous rapper anymore to be honest [especially of how mainstream Hip-Hop has become so disgusting; fakes everywhere] . . or maybe even a tattoo artist . . and I'm startin' to really not give a fuck about impressin' my peers anymore . . I feel that sometimes I need to put my dreams/bullshittin' aside and set out for what really matters . . cuz at the end of the day, who's really gon' stay down for you when everything falls off ?

"Don't make the mistakes I made . Go to school, get good grades ! Don't worry 'bout tryin' to get paid ! Cuz at the end of the day, the only real thing, is WHATEVER'S STILL HERE, WHEN THE MONEY GO AWAY ! " - rapper, Saigon .

-M.C.

Congratulations

To the Oklahoma City Thunder for winning game 3 of the NBA 2009-2010 Playoffs . . THANKS TO THE REFS !!

Don't get it twisted, the players for the Thunder made some crucial moves and the Lakers DID miss A LOT of shots .

BUT . . every fuckin' move the Lakers did, it was a foul on 'em !
But when Lakers got fouled, refs didn't call shit

Thanks refs ! For fuckin' up the game .


-M.C.

Imagine

So tonight, I realized how much imagination goes through my head . I've always found myself pretty imaginative . . but I didn't realize 'til now that I'm such a dreamer . I just noticed how much I say, "Imagine this/imagine that ." It's amazing if you ask me . . and I'm ALWAYS day-dreaming/imagining things . . how things started . . how things work . . how things used to be . . how it's gon' be in the future . . etc .

There are soo many possibilities out there . . soo many ways . . soo many outcomes .

Regardless on how I perform at school, I truly believe I'm one of the smartest people that's ever lived . Not because of how much I know . . but my will to imagine things . . to be soo . . CURIOUS .

They say curiosity killed the cat . . But I say curiosity saved the cat .

Think about it, without curiosity, the human race would've been wiped out a loooong time ago . It's our IMAGINATION and our will to try things that's helped us come from the bottom of the foodchain to the top .

My curiosity has helped me with my reading and writing . . I've learned to love reading because of curiosity, as I am always eager to KNOW about how things work . . I've learned to love writing because of curiosity, as I'm always eager to express/share my thoughts/views and see how people react to it; whether they don't like it or learn something from it .

I just noticed how much I really use the word "imagine" in my daily life . . like no joke, I use it A LOT . . Shows how curious I am .

I think I'ma get "IMAGINE" tatted on me soon . . or one day . DEFINETELY .



You may say I'm a dreamer . . but I'm not the only one .

-M.C.

Wow . . Seriously, Eagles . . ?

So tonight, I found out the Eagles traded Donovan McNabb . . the Eagle's BEST franchise quarterback ever . What a fuckin' sad ending . . this shit seriously broke my heart . While Donovan never won a title there, I felt like if they gave him more time (maybe this upcoming season), when he actually does have weapons to use, he would win one . . I'm truly disappointed by the Eagles' decision-making . . especially knowing he was traded to our rival-team (the Redskins) .

I remember when I started liking the Eagles when I started really watchin' football . . it was cuz of McNabb . Why was the Eagles' organization/Philly FANS so quick to get rid of McNabb . . ? I feel like that's a disrespectful way of sayin' bye . . like we can do better with Vick (who Donovan beat in the 2004 NFC Champhionship game) or Kolb, who hasn't even proven shit .

From the day McNabb was drafted, Philly fans have been disrespectful towards him, what the hell is wrong with people from Philly . . ?

It would've been tight to see McNabb finally hold the trophy as an Eagle . . but I guess that's not happenin' . .

-M.C.

Fuckin' Nasty

So the T.V. is on MTV right now . About 15 minutes ago, the preview for the new season for The Hills was on and I wasn't really payin' attention . . but I took a quick glance and saw a scene where Heidi Montag was at . . I didn't recognize her at first cuz I thought it was another person . . then I continued to listen to the people who were talkin' and it turned out, it was Heidi . . I was HORRIFIED ! She looked fuckin' scary ! Supposedly, she had everything "re-done ." I couldn't believe my eyes cuz she looked like something straight out of a scary movie . . So I googled her and there it goes . . it's true . I used to fuckin' think she was a cutie but now, I'm scared shitless to look at her pictures .

I don't mean to generalize White people . . but why do RICH White people do this to themselves ? The majority of people who get surgery [from what I've witnessed] are rich White people . . What is it about feelin' self-concious that lead 'em to plastic surgery ? Honestly, there's things I hate about my looks (i.e. my stretch marks, pimple scars, etc.) but I would never get a nose job, chin job, EXTREME surgery . That's just wrong . . for one : it's fuckin' painful . Secondly : I hate being fake ! Yea anyways, if you got all the money in the world, beautiful looks, etc . . what else can you fuckin' want more ?! That's just somethin' I don't get about rich White people/rich people in general .

-M.C.